I have always loved music. I have been singing since I could talk and playing the piano as soon as I could reach it. I started playing by ear at 4 and later took lessons. I began singing in my church at the age of 5. It was so much of a passion, I pursued music all the way through school and chose to major in music education at Toccoa Falls college.
One musical influence is Laura Story. I relate so much to what she writes about and love her melodies. I love how she writes about real stuff and how she has seen God in such an incredible way, through trials, the not so fun stuff of life. I can really relate to her song “I Can Just Be Me”, because of years of struggling with self-image. The first song I wrote called “I am Free” was my senior year in college about being set free to see myself the way God sees me. Because of the self-worth issues growing up I never believed I was good enough or that I was accepted. I did not know what to do with my pain. Many of the songs I have written have to do with being freed from the pain I carried so long.
The last ten years, I have been writing about recovery. My husband is a recovering addict and I am recovering from a lifetime of codependency. We have worked on lyrics together and it has been truly healing. I am learning that my worth is not in how I see myself and the brutal measuring stick I used to assess my worth. My worth is in the fact that I have been redeemed from this life of self- defeating lies that play over and over again in my head.
Both myself and my husband have attended recovery meetings for 12 plus years. Through those meetings, I have learned to feel those feelings and work through them, and then once and for all release them to God. Only then can I be free to thrive and to realize what I was meant to be: a beautiful reflection of God’s grace and mercy, his beloved child. I want this music to encourage others who feel alone and that there is no hope to seek recovery and a community in which to heal and grow closer to God.
Music is such a tool of healing. My prayer is that you will get God’s truth and hope stuck in your head through song and hearing those truths over and over again. I know that always has worked for me.